Revisiting a miscarriage from 2019. Losing a baby is so tough and I cannot begin to imagine the trauma of back to back miscarriages. In my case it was an ectopic pregnancy. The doctor had explained my options and I drove home devastated. How my heart ached knowing I had to terminate my pregnancy or risk my life and still end up with no baby. Continuing a pregnancy like that could do so much damage to a body. It could cost you your fertility or worse your life. I feel for anyone suffering with such a dilemma. In my case, I miscarried days before having to finalize my decision. I was beyond grateful it happened naturally because my guilt would have killed me. Either way the pain is indescribable. 1 in 4 couples suffer with fertility issues and 1 in 8 pregnancies end in miscarriage. Fertility and miscarriage has been such a taboo subject because it is an uncomfortable topic. Some are shamed for being open about it. As someone living the 1 in 8 and 1 in 4 truth I definitely have experienced this but I didn’t let it faze me. There is no right way to grieve or one way, I just wanted everyone to know that my baby was alive and had all our love. Weather you want to grieve in silence or tell the world, you are not alone and there are so many out there that understand and feel your pain. I send you my love and support.