Anxiety and depression

I suffer from anxiety and depression. Some days I don’t feel like being alive (not suicidal). Like I don’t want to have human interactions and would prefer to be under a rock and not have any thoughts in my head. My outward appearance doesn’t typically show what I am feeling on the inside. Mostly I…

Struggle Busssss…

I’m alive! This year has been so busy, full of ups and downs. From March to June I traveled a lot. From Los Angeles to Atlanta to Rhode Island. I am still recovering. It was a fabulous and amazing experience but it took a toll on me emotionally but mostly economically. Traveling made me realize…

Hello Friend…

My depression has definitely subsided. Thank God! Unfortunately I let myself go health-wise and now I have to hop back into shape so I can undo all the harm. Coming out of a depression episode it is important for me to show myself compassion and understanding. Just as I would a friend if the roles…

Gratitude

Today I wanted to focus on the good things in life. Life has been hard and there seems to be a cloud of darkness that is constantly roaming. My depression has made its grand appearance and for me it manifests in sporadic crying, anxiety, lack of energy and socializing becomes taxing. It is necessary for…

How’s it going…

If I am being honest… Last week was tough for me. I was not motivated to eat healthy meals. Even though I didn’t eat out I did not cook the healthiest meals. I still managed to lose half a pound but I know that I could have done better. I also had 2 days where…

7 month’s in…

2021… what have you accomplished? This whole pandemic thing has been so challenging for so many. I can say with certainty that my relationship with God has gotten stronger. I am working hard to read the Bible daily and meditate on what I read. I have daily affirmations to help me love myself because sometimes…

Pandemic # sigh

Well… I’m not gonna lie. I gained 20lbs during the pandemic. I was afraid to step on the scale but I did and I felt so sad. I looked at myself in the mirror and hated what I saw. With things opening back up and the possibility of being in social settings my anxiety began…

Work in progress…

There is no such thing as a perfect relationship or marriage. It is always a work in progress. Both people are constantly changing and working on themselves and on their relationships. On top of all that you have to balance with putting God first, work, money management, bills, housework, pets and the list goes on…

Fatigue…

Time for a PCOS update. I stopped taking metformin a few months ago and I gained so much weight. I was doing so much better without taking that stupid medicine. For those wondering why I stopped taking metformin… It made me so sick it affected my quality of life. It made my stomach so upset…

Good grief – miscarriage

Revisiting a miscarriage from 2019. Losing a baby is so tough and I cannot begin to imagine the trauma of back to back miscarriages. In my case it was an ectopic pregnancy. The doctor had explained my options and I drove home devastated. How my heart ached knowing I had to terminate my pregnancy or…